Is there a sense of envy when you see people with strong grips on their faith? And I feel like a cripple when they talk passionately about the holy book of Allah that they effortlessly put me in awe, when they spoke of what each Arabic verse meant in our mother tongue so we can understand.

And sometimes you see the beautiful world you live in, the freedom you are capable of exploiting, what do you do? But I am thankful, for the way I am raised. That some things are of no interest to me.

I have just finished catching up on lectures I have missed this week, and yes - two lectures missed in two days. Ain't so cool, mate. The first lecture missed was because I overslept, and the second one was, because I overslept..?

Alright, so Lauri pointed out today. Oh, articles extracted from the BBC thanks ;)

The orange line shows the price we are paying, and the blue one is the wholesale gas price. Crazy world we are living in yes? Well, you Bruneians be thankful, always.

Assalamualaikum everybody.

first day of the second semester

I've got two books from Amazon coming this week (:

Just ordered the other one a few hours back. SO today's the first day of the second semester. And I've just gotten my Introduction to Management formative test result in lecture today, and I've managed to be at the top of the class by getting 83% and my lecturer was like, "okay, so let's see who's the star" and then I got people clapping and cheers from the whole lecture theatre. PALOI, MALU WAH KU. A good feeling, though, can't lie about that. TAPI MALU WAH KU. Well I just hope I keep up the good work, will work it. Anyway, will go dengani Nisah chop off her hair because according to her, it looks 'betagar' dan 'berigali' so she wants to chop off thebetagar part of her hair, that's if she doesn't change her mind by Wednesday afternoon. HAHA!

Marketing today was alright, didn't have lecture, just guidelines and inductions and a little bit of information how its going to be this semester, and there'll be loads of seminars, and LOADS OF READING, this time the reading is non-optional. Required for them seminars and most importantly for the assignment. AH YES, ANOTHER ASSIGNMENT DUE MARCH. Everyone here expects me to be an anti-social again macam hariatu, locked in my room doing my assignments, and assignments and assignments. And I have to admit, I have a strong feeling I am going to be an anti-social lagi. Damn.

And for Statistics today. WHAT I SAW LOOKED LIKE HELL. The formulas and symbols look like, pictures and doodles to me. Doesn't make sense, but I sure can make shit out of them. The formulas look like hell, and I told that to Victor and he said, "oh you can say that again" - ALWAYS. Lauri thinks it was alright, though. So anyway, esok aku ada Accounting aaaand, let me check. And Statistics tutorial, bah okay looks like I've got to read what they 'learned' today and in my case, what I witnessed - so Insyallah it'll be alright esok, if I managed to understand what happened in lecture today (:

Assalamualaikum!

“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”

Don't know lah what happened to the photo sizes, at my part they're all huge, but from your screen I am not quite sure. Tried uploading them to different sizes other than large, but still, came out large. Anyway, should have put these up a long time ago, these are some photos from the BSU Winter Games in London (:

Assalamualaikum (:

Done with the exams a few days ago, felt good. First paper last week was, alright and got 84% could've done better though, but Alhamdulillah and the second paper a few days ago was THE BOMB - results for this aren't out yet, probably sometime in the third week of the next semester.

Kaka Tina and Amin was wedded last week, CONGRATULATIONS! And like I said, "I am missing on a lot back home" - Until then you'll realise what you always have around you all your life that you could not see and maybe failed to appreciate more before. The people around you, and the gatherings and the joy. So before I had no idea my cousin was getting married, until the night (or was it the day before?) before her wedding was I told of her big day. I have to admit, mixed feelings, of happiness, but in mere disbelief and sadness for missing such an event. And my mind started to play like a film of what I'd be doing if I was there and all the things we always do the night before the wedding. Always been my favourite. And I missed it. Wouldn't have cared if it was some strangers wedding. But I wouldn't want to miss ANY of my cousins' wedding.

And ANOTHER that frustrated me, well nobody told me, but when its your family, then you'll always know what's going on with your family. Kaka Hajah Mandi Belawat - It's bad enough that I miss Baby Izat growing up. And for sure I know he wouldn't recognise me nanti or close to me, cos I am and will be away for the first years of his life ):

So much things I'm missing out, those are a few. Should be getting back to my revision. I'm done with exams though, but yeah - before I forget my stuff, better flip some pages and revise before next semester starts to machine-gun my head. Oh! Watch these, crack me up (:

i fancy

The first and third ones selalu on TV and I find them very interesting and funny, always.

And somehow, it reminds me of bapa (:

shan't be

Assalamualaikum,

Went to South Shields yesterday, it was a very quiet place, with lots and lots of pretty green grass, and nice houses, a very peaceful town I have to admit. But Mann said there's no way he can survive in such a place if he was to dwell there, because its too quiet? We went there to visit Abang Samsul though, and to pergi ke carnival. Anyway, on top of that, ada beach, where in London or where in Livarpool can you get a beach? Well for your information South Shields is 30 minutes away from Newcastle City at maximum, and went there by metro and I think Jimmy said South Shield is still a part of Newcastle, so its still Newcastle (:

So I have decided not to join going to York on Wednesday, yes a day before leaving for London - but that's not the point lah to why I decided to stay. Cos the whole point of going to York is to go to factory outlets in other words, to "shop" - and I do not want to end up buying things I don't need. And for sure, everyone knows better than to believe me say I won't shop in York, please.

I have been doing Marketing revision over that last one hour. I seriously need to get earplugs. Oh and I have two more parcels coming this month from Amazon - bought two more books (: (: